From the 8th week, it was torturing. Now and then was nausea, all i could think of is wanting to lie down. You can imagine how hard working in the office can be then! towards the end of the first trimester, and transiting to the next, the vomitting quota started. The daily quota is 1-2 throws. gosh! grose, i know hahaha... but it was bad if i kept telling myself to keep keep keep. BUT if i dare to throw out, i will drop to tears for a moment, and feel so much better after that. Eating habits had a change in timing. To fit into my morning sickness hours, i have to eat before i feel nausea. And so, sometimes if the morning sickness lasts throughout, i can go without meals! My tummy is bloated all the time. My tastebuds go for hotstuffs all the time. I love red cut chilli and real good curry (now, not before). There is a total change in choosing food. I hate the taste of milk powder, and i wanna puke everytime i drink milk.
My first checkup scan says the baby is fine. There is a cystic space with some accumulation of blood, thus it was said a high chance of miscarriage, still. The expected DD was said to be 2nd March 2009. Though i dare not think far, but i keep the daimoku going for the baby to have the buddha lifeforce and wisdom to grow and live healthily, and see him/her soon!
Towards the 2nd trimester now, i have to get back to work. i've NO MORE medical leave to rest for!!! OMG! i know how much rest i need, but looking at this, i have not much choice. i just have to leave to Gohonzon. Eventually, i know, what's for me will be with me. Just hope the baby will be good! And i have to get back to my working desk. Although i have alot of unhappiness irritating me all the time, i really just can't help it but feel agitated. Sometimes, may hurt people around me... haiii... hope i get back to normal SOOoooN!!! this week, no more vomitting as yet, hopefully it is subsiding!!
this is real unique child for me.
When i had the first one, it was great! I could still run around actively and happily enjoying everyday! All i do is to think of what to eat NEXT! hahaha....
The 2nd one din last, as it din grow well, and ended in a threatened abortion at 12th week.
i can't imagine i have to live this for 6 more months, if the morning sickness don stop, if the tiredness and restlessness don end, i can't imagine how can i pick myself back again after that!!
Dear friends, remember to bring me back after that hor!!!
hahahahaa....
