遗憾

So, what lies beneath us?
What is left between us?
Does it mean after i have done the job nicely to help you get on with your work, u shall continue to be cold and we are back to strangers?
也许你身边围绕着太多数不清的朋友了，而我算什么！没钱没名也就自然没分吧！
到今天为止，我还想不通，你所谓的后悔到底是指什么。。。因为我还是没有任何悔恨，所以仍然想不出，后悔的理由。但，心里却有些遗憾，感觉上，你好像误会了我对你的批评！当时我把你和他比较，记得你误会了我对你的敬爱还有高判和赞美。。。为什么却没有洗清这份误会呢...为何不再有机会。。。。

三十一岁的'经'典

帮助我的他人，给于如此奥妙的分享，是这一生无法忘掉的遗憾...
三十一岁生日将是这辈子最特别，最贵重，最难忘的经验...

生命何处寄
无语问苍天

良言一句三冬暖
恶语伤人六月寒
是非审之于己也
毁誉听之于人也

假作真时真亦假
话到喉头暗暗然
无为有时有还无
隐忍吞声嘤嘤然

千言万语不堪论
旧日今朝空回首
仰天长叹泪千行
沧海一笑泪无痕

情真意切、心非心
欢声笑语、明非明
怨声载道、事非事
旧时今朝、人非人

累了一切都尽也
尽了一切都空也
空了一切都静也
静了一切都泪也

书不尽言，言不尽意，
特别是感情事，更是笔墨言语所能表达，
唯有一切尽在不言中…

就这样，一切情感的升华随着时间停止而 宁...
从此，不再受到任何关心，回应，不再有任何关系...
难道非要如此残忍才能继续活下去吗？
朋友不如、回到原点，但，心情再也不如往日那么简单了...
这份阴影，该怎么放得下？

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How do you like my latest product?

---namecard design

In the world of Chinese Medicine or chinese herbs, the road that chinese took to realise the power of these healing power. The knowledge that they gained and curing generations of humanity. The roots that they develop their ancestors, the depth of life's sufferings one generation after another... tells the story and the depth of one's own life and history or background. The challenges and struggles that life portrays, which allows humanity to develop, grow in their knowlege, wisdom and perspective, is all i want to say in this proposed namecard design.

inspiration for namcard design needed!!

i need inspiration for a new namecard design... for somebody who is ver important to me, somebody whom i do not want to disappoint, somebody whom i owe my gratitude to.... i need inspiration for his perfect eyes.... high hopes and tastes of perfection.... so hard lor!!! haiii.... sighs... so difficult leh...!!!

first exam experience

i had my first examination experience since after O levels.... in november this year.... in poly, i was in design course and thus there was no written examinations. So, for the first time, i had examinations NOT in school uniforms. I was feeling weird when i thought the day before the first paper, that what should i wear to the examination hall! Because i wonder if it was going to be air-conditioned, and wondered if i would be chased out if i go in bermudas and slip-ins hahahaa.... well, i din realise the times have changed. the authorities sure cannot help it where kids nowadays go to tertiary schools in hot shorts and slippers!!! ---i always wonder: AREN'T they COOOOLD!!!???? sigh....

i was so ready for my first paper - BUS101:Organisational Behaviour ---and i was so disappointed. because i could not finish all the questions. I already scribbled through and yet i did not manage to finish all the questions in time!! I could not get the answers out from my mind at the nervous and frightening exam moment!!! I needed to cool down. but there was no time to THINK!!!

So after the first experience, i know that i have NO TIME to think for the next two papers. no use studying so hard la.... because it all depends on how fast information come to my mind to scribble the answers through!!! .... Eventually, guess after the first ever exciting experience, i manage to finish my second paper on time -- and managed to even redo a question instead!! -- and the last paper on Quantitative Methods, management was not as difficult as OB, and the last paper was much better than first two.

Hopefully, i really wish i could pass all the papers ---- now no even need to think about flygin colours!!! :*( really hard!~!!! .... pass can already....
And i was glad, after the challenges and struggles i had for the Academic Writing assignment at the beginning about the submission, i managed to score 79 for my final assignment. I m really happy and proud of myself hahahah :P

I realised many things that we wish for or have high hopes on, it turns out to be the other way..... why!!??? i thought i will score the highest or do best in OB, instead i think i will be getting better results for the worst subject i m weakest in... QM!!!

Let's see....

哥哥永远在我心...

曾经是好同事，他好像哥哥疼我关心我。
我们是设计师...一起工作...
五年前因为得了癌症，回了马国，和家人孩子一起度过。
没想到已经过了那么久...上个星期四突然收到消息，他离开了...

他送我的二十一岁生日礼物，手链一直我都戴在身上365天没有离开过我。
没想到，今年我脱下了，收着而没有戴着了，他的病情恶化了...
结果离开了...

哥哥永远在我心...
你几时来看我？ :(

so near and yet so far...

For once i feel somebody so close to my heart, and want to befriend with, with lots of envy and respect for. For once i feel the same thing to only one person. And for such a long time fate has never brought us any closer. Was there a waiting all these while? Was there been a quiet wait? Is it worth the wait? Will i get to be her friend someday in the years to come? Finally i was able to express these thoughts to her last night. I feel a bit at ease. Even though destiny is what is going to be, i have no regrets. Like i said to her, it takes two hands to clap. It takes both hearts to last too! All i can feel is that she is somebody i want to be with, talk to, shopping mate, dining friend, chatter partner, family sharing.... but always so near to me and yet so far to get close to her heart :)

Perhaps one day down the years when i get myself there, almost there, to the same level as her, in terms of lifestyle, standard of living, spending power level, achievement level.... perhaps there is chance for us to tag together! But as i move forward, she is advancing too! Or... perhaps, i am forever only a shadow behind her :).....

Painful deepful thoughts

Somebody comes to me and gives me memories and then takes the train off and leaves, what is left behind are just memories and doubts. Thoughts that can never be answered. Regrets that can never be atoned. What to do if you have words to say? No need to say anymore. Swallow it into your stomach. Say it to your heart. Say sorry to your heart. Keep remembering what happened and was given to you. What the objective of the blessing was. What do you gain from it at the end? Do you go forward with it? Yes, for how long can you take it? For how long can you remember every single little thing that happened that you felt was the blessing you experienced in your life... Even though you may not be able to forget, but where do all the thankful words of gratitude and regrets go to.... Can he or she ever hear it again? What do you call this painful thought and deepfelt memories....

The Corporate Ladder Up...

The current me in the midst of climbing many mountains, overcoming hurdles of challenges, in the studies, work and family.

With memories not wanting to let go

With happiness to share

With challenges to conquer

With love to give

With compromise to seek

With understanding to each other

With dreams to fulfill....

苏有朋~擦肩而过

亲手摧毁生命中最珍贵的友情，人生从此有多少遗憾，生命中又有多少期盼...
当一切擦肩而过的时候，你又何尝握紧那双手，好好珍藏每一刻，留下动人的传说...

总是在转身以后,才发现梦已远走
熟悉依旧却隔着遥远的距离
追逐里萍水相逢随青春停停走走
你我的梦随着人潮擦肩而过

天亮的时候,我的心还在梦游
未曾结束昨夜深情的回眸
我终于明白,其实你我都想拥有
在青春路上相互回眸的那一刻

爱情擦肩而过的时候,也曾想要珍惜那悸动
只是握不住彼此不同方向的手
你我擦肩而过的时候,也曾留下动人的传说
是否还能够为我等待为你停留