The Cushion Just Din Burst - 37th Week

It's my 37th week, my last 2 days at work. Did alot of walking, so many pains, walking up the mountainous roads on campus, still, Eliza has not burst to birth! haha... Thought i should have a last shot before i go flat again hahaha... din realise i looked like i had a cushion under my tshirt! Does it look round enough to be convinced it's a girl!???

Final Trimester. Awaiting Arrival of Eliza.

36 Weeks. Eliza's head went UP again after the scan was done at last checkup. Cesarean is planned. 18 February 2009 will be the day.

Looking ahead. Thoughts came to my mind. It will be a great change after next week. Another member joins the family to make up perfect 4. Is kdenn going to accept Eliza as sibling dearest sister of his? Is he loosing his proud king majesty's moments and properties? Is he loosing love from his dearest parents? Will mummy lost him further as time goes by? Suddenly i felt how dear he is to me, i cannot afford to lost the track with him. I want him to be everything, have everything and learn and develop in the best that life should be. He is the smartest in my eyes, the one with wisdom and will in everything, the most sensible senses i ever can imagine. Even though he may be slow in certain developments, but he is unique in many areas i can see. I know i need to give more time to nourish another baby for the time being, but i cannot afford to let loose kdenn's growth too. I know it's gonna be double hard double struggle after next week. I need to build up my health again. So that i do not loose track to both children of mine. Counting the blessings, i have a supporting husband, though i need to remind him of the senses in life and bring his life condition UP UP UP at most times of life. Now i am going to have Eliza and Kdenn to build up and develop them to unique individuals of the future. I know that i have to sacrifice for time and efforts so that i can see the fruits of labour in 10 years time, 20 years and more.

I must strive on, so that i can enjoy the fruits 20years from now, which i will be 50 by then. Thoughts will be with darling then. Enjoying the fruits in 20yrs time with darling, seeing Kdenn and Eliza grow up to blend with the society to build their own future and life. They must be independent by then, create their own future, fight for their own dreams, achieve their own fruits and i shall not be bothered much by them, and continue my path of life. That will be it.

For now, back to time, chant chant chant! Eliza to come healthily, beautifully and perfect for mummy and daddy!