Must i live in tight pockets everyday for ever?
Why can't i even save my own money when i thought i deserve it?
Why can't i say "no" in order to save my own earnings?
Do i deserve the turn-off when i say "no"?
Haven't i been a good enough wife to deserve protecting that little bit of savings for the next raining day?
i feel so sad.... cos i thought i have given every thing i could, and i am not appreciated just because i did not want to share my extra little savings... for a not-very-important bill which even if i give up my little savings, it doesn't help much!
How could i have deserve these!!!
...despite of whatever that is happening to the worsen global warming, or anything under the sun, at home and or myself, i want to list my resolutions to make a difference in 2010 here:-
- to read at least 1 book a month that widens my language and knowledge and philosophy and expand my perspective in life
- to see life in a wider perspective, forgive and understand pple around me and the environment so as to be a person/lady with greatness, compassion and uniqueness.
- to be ready for further studies, overcome struggles of time management for family, work and study, through chanting and buddha wisdom.
- to save more $$, alot alot, and spend only wisely for the better of future when Kdenn goes to primary school - which i may have to go jobless.
