need a break ~ a brain wash in exact

i wish i can go for a long break. i wish my brain can be washed.... i wish to wash off my pain inside.... sometimes i wish i m not an emotional human. Why can't i be just a metal heart with no feelings? then i will not need to suffer so much pain and aches again and again.

Emo humans are so contradicting. Want to erase certain parts of your memory, but on the other hand can't bear to let it go. Just don wan to let it go. why!? Or is it just me myself!?? Why why why... There is always a home for me i know. No matter where we go, the best place is always your home, your love ones, who are always there for you, and belong to you. These should make one be contented in life....