so near and yet so far...

For once i feel somebody so close to my heart, and want to befriend with, with lots of envy and respect for. For once i feel the same thing to only one person. And for such a long time fate has never brought us any closer. Was there a waiting all these while? Was there been a quiet wait? Is it worth the wait? Will i get to be her friend someday in the years to come? Finally i was able to express these thoughts to her last night. I feel a bit at ease. Even though destiny is what is going to be, i have no regrets. Like i said to her, it takes two hands to clap. It takes both hearts to last too! All i can feel is that she is somebody i want to be with, talk to, shopping mate, dining friend, chatter partner, family sharing.... but always so near to me and yet so far to get close to her heart :)

Perhaps one day down the years when i get myself there, almost there, to the same level as her, in terms of lifestyle, standard of living, spending power level, achievement level.... perhaps there is chance for us to tag together! But as i move forward, she is advancing too! Or... perhaps, i am forever only a shadow behind her :).....

Painful deepful thoughts

Somebody comes to me and gives me memories and then takes the train off and leaves, what is left behind are just memories and doubts. Thoughts that can never be answered. Regrets that can never be atoned. What to do if you have words to say? No need to say anymore. Swallow it into your stomach. Say it to your heart. Say sorry to your heart. Keep remembering what happened and was given to you. What the objective of the blessing was. What do you gain from it at the end? Do you go forward with it? Yes, for how long can you take it? For how long can you remember every single little thing that happened that you felt was the blessing you experienced in your life... Even though you may not be able to forget, but where do all the thankful words of gratitude and regrets go to.... Can he or she ever hear it again? What do you call this painful thought and deepfelt memories....

The Corporate Ladder Up...

The current me in the midst of climbing many mountains, overcoming hurdles of challenges, in the studies, work and family.

With memories not wanting to let go

With happiness to share

With challenges to conquer

With love to give

With compromise to seek

With understanding to each other

With dreams to fulfill....